♥ Sunday, September 13, 2009 ! (:
` Bitch-ed at 18:59hours ! ^^
Ergghhhhhh !!! Sheesh , these sucks . Everything sucks right now . I hate these ! I just can't imagine . Erghhhhhhhhh !!! I just can't help but cry , cry and cry . ( Nanges batal puaser ker tkk uhh ? Haishh , forget it . Who cares anyway ) I don't know , argh ! You people just have no idea what the hell is going on in my life . And i don't bother to tell you people , just mind your own business . I have a great urge to slit myself again . This time , it won't be the usual scissors . I really hate everything now ! I have no idea what i'm suppose to do . Did she mean it ? Is my life really going to end just like that ? Lectures , scoldings , cannings , punishments . Yes , it's all been happening . You people won't believe it right ? Fifteen and still going through these kinds of things . I've tried my best but i'm still not good enough . It's always anis this and anis that . Praise her all the time , love her more than me uhh . I just don't know lahh . Now they went to buke puase and i'm 'not allowed' to follow . I'll just drink water when it's time , then i don't know what to do . Should i do my hwk ? Cause if she meant what she said , then doing my hwk is a waste . I'm just so confuse right now . I have no directions in life , and my family is not helping at all . Making my self-esteem lower , making me lose my confidence , well that's a bummer . Sheesh ! I bet nobody cares about me , nobody loves me . And if what i imagine really happens , then i bet nobody will miss me or whatsoever . If only ... Well , don't be surprise if you don't see me around in school anymore . If i still go to school , then just leave me alone . Damn you .Labels: Don't bother reading . Goodbye .
Yours truly ,
♥ Helena Natasha
