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Hahaha , okeyhokeyh . This Adam Khoo workshop is rly good , no kidding . I learnt alot of things that are important . Things like studies , families , friends , life , MYSELF . It rly made me realise that it doesn't matter what ppl think abt me , all that matters is what i think of myself . Belief is so strong that it controls my mind and hence i have to believe that i can do it ! All the study techniques are brilliant , and i'll try my best . Oops , DO my best . Sry , my mistake . Ohh yeahh , that's also one of the things we learnt . Trying and doing has a totally different effect . By trying , i'm not pushing myself to the maximum limit but instead i'm limiting myself . By doing , i'll push myself very hard to achieve a goal that might seem impossible but NOTHING is impossible if i set my mind to it . There's alot more things that we learn which would totally benefit lahh . Melvin and Bong rly made me think abt myself , my family and my life . They made me afraid but at the same time , they made me brave to face reality and fight for my goals . We shared laughs , tears , and hugs tgt . It's stg that i can nvr forget , it's a memory that'll stay with me forever . For the closing ceremony today , i rly wished my parents could have made it . I think the talk that Leroy gave would have benefit them and i could have the chance to have that emotional feeling tgt with the rest who their parents came . But unfortunately , my parents couldn't come and i just can't help but cry a hell lot . Cause i know i wanna talk to them abt everything but i didn't have the chance tonight . But no matter , i will talk to them tmr ( which is today actually so it's ltr ) . I wanted to feel like what my friends felt , i wanted to hug my parents like my friends hugged theirs . I rly wished my parents had came for it . But thanks to Nadya , Aisyah , Siti , Radiance , Nurrid , Falah , Amirah , Afiqah and i can't recall who else for the hugs . Though it made me cry even more thinking abt it , it was rly nice to know that there are ppl out there who cares for me and love me as much as i do . Here , i would like to apologise to all my friends and teachers for all the wrong doings that i've done to you , and i'd like to thank you all for being there for me when i needed someone or care for me or helped me in anyway . Thanks for everything , and i love you all . Gosh , i'm getting rly emotional right now . Tears are starting to flow down my cheeks , ergh . I feel like shouting , i feel like crying and i feel like hugging my parents . Gosh , this workshop rly benefits all of us and it motivates me to do my best in life . Basically , i have to believe in myself and fight for my goals . Fake it til you make it .

Okeyh , enough with all the emotional stuffs .

Anw , getting rly close to my dear Amalina these days and i'm loving it ! She writes rly amazing songs and never fail to make me laugh even with her lame-ness . Hahah , she's awesome ! And babe , i'll be here whenever you need me alright ? Love you lahh girl ! Rmb uhh , monday ! ;DD

So , i'm currently busy thinking abt my life . What have i done so far ? What THE FUCKING HELL have i done so far ? And what will i do in the future to make my life better for myself ? What do i wanna be and what do i wanna do ? How the hell am i going to repay my beloved parents for every single thing they have done for me for the past 15plus yrs of my life ?! What are my targets and goals in life ? Am i going to keep my promise and do my absolute best to fight and achieve what i want ? Or do i wanna regret and wish that i can rewind time in the future thinking that i'm not happy with the way my life is ? It's all up to me . And it all starts now .

This has been a real wake up call for me , and i rly rly wanna do my best . Not try , but do . And yes , i wanna say " i love you " to my parents everyday and i wanna hear them say it to me everyday too . I wanna make them proud of me and prove to them that i can do it .

Ohh gosh , okeyh enough lahhh . Aite , i'm doing alot of thinking now . Think i can't continue blogging cause it'll disrupt my reflection abt these past three days .

Let's all work tgt to achieve our goals for O'levels and in life ! Rmb everything from the past three days and apply it to our lives , friends . We can do it ! Come on :D

Okeyh , bye . And i love you all ! (: